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ouhh..i feel so lonely rite now and i dont know why. there's to many things going around that i cant even focus on one thing. exam is coming soon, losing weight is another problem, i need more money!!..goshh!..
sometimes when u start to love someone, u tend to forget everyone around you including your friends. and dats my major problem. its not dat im in love and im neglecting my frens, its just dat people do that. they dont realize untill they're being told.

sometimes, its not about having someone special in ur life...its about remembering the one who always help u when u need them, someone who will always be with you no matter how busy they are, someone who will stick with you and appreciate u the way you are. it hurts when u know you've been kicked out from their life. yeaahh..they will accept u back..but it takes a while...untill they think they need you, they'll come back to you.

i know i love my friends to much. i know i'll do anything for them to like me. but sometimes, why cant they do the same?..i know, sometimes..i talk to much and there are times that i hurt ppl. i know i hurt them..its not dat i do it on purpose. its just because i care about those people to much..understand me and i'll understand you.

i'll try to be someone better. at least im trying. pls..don't lie to me..you can hurt me but pls dont lie. it hurts so bad. i'll accept anything, whatever you think you wanna say..just say it. i'll take it as a challenge and live with it.

p/s..to him. pls change. i know ur a good person. i know u can be somebody but pls..stop hurting people who loves you more than anything. try to learn how to appreciate people. remember..honesty is always the best policy! helping you is all i can do. call me if u need me. =)

blub blub!

have u ever changed someone into someone u never know he could be..and when u left him, he's not the person u knew anymore.. YES! i did...he changed!!...he's being stupid again and i dont know y..im not there to protect him anymore...he's just being so stupid! he promised me and he lied! arghhh!!!!...stupid fren he got there! ppl! THINK BEFORE U ACT!!!

Thank U!

"Tuhan itu maha adil". that is wat i'll always stick to. i know, my life will be over another 3 days. i know dis happy face will never ever be the same again. but im glad that i am now, smilling and enjoying my life while i can. Move on, is the best way to pursuit happiness. to be happy, i'll think of wat i'll remember. The best moment is what i cherish to make me be proud of who i am. The key of happiness is Bad memory. Crying is wat i do best to forget everything. sometimes, its about U. U urself ..have to change watever ur thinking. u dont have to have millions to be happy.Money doesn't always bring happiness, people with ten million dollars are no happier then people with nine million dollars. u just need that very best moment, with a slice of family and a pinch of friend to have a complete recipe of HAPPINNES. =)

xDD great day!

yeayyyyy!! gue gembira bangat hari ni...hahaha..ok..the plan was like dis...me, eman, abg amer and shaz were supposed to hang out together today...sepatutnyer..nk g tgk movie at 5, KL Drift evryone was so busy dgn benda lain and as usual, me as the postman, yg kena arrange evrythin. and finally, we did manage to go out, but it was 3 hours later, we went out at 8. so...hujan lebat bagai nk rak...i was so soaking wet, penat blow rambut lawa2....smua hancur!..ahhaha..and at last kesemuanya end up kt kapaitan. AGAIN!..yea...i know i know!...Eman, as usual acting so weird kononnyer to impressed shaz. i was just sitting, looking at them, jealous?..hmm lil bit.mayb. eman was starring at her eyes!...damn it. dia mmg x pandai belakon seyh!...huh..tetiba, ader one dis car lalu, and secara kebetulan..laki tuh eman's fren and nadia (shaz's couz) nyer ex bf! timbulah suasana yg caca marba!..ahahhah...crita panjang sgt...malas nk tulis..then, dis eman ni ader bwat benda bodoh sket...akibatnyer...shaz bengang + marah +annoyed = muka merah +biru!..wtf?..ahhha..because of that...dia kena balik asap. si chand ni kuch kaha dah mula kol and bising!...sumpah menyampah gler! and eman kena hantar shaz balik. ktorang pown suruh la eman antar shaz balik....ntahla aper jd dlm kreta..masa balik...muka eman huh!..ahha tuhan je tahu...it was kindda pinkish and redishhh and bluishh..hahah..muka marah ngan frust la tuh.pas tuh dia bersumpah tak nak jumpa shaz, contact her. ahha and ktorang bet, kalau dia wat cm tuh..i'll get rm50!..kindda cool kan!..and tetiba eman was like...aya jom karaoke...ahha i was like..OK!...ahhaha..pastuh gerak la gi karaoke!..his voice was superb!..sedap dowhh!..dah la nyanyi lagu broery...ahhaha...kejap jer kat sana..it was like an hour je..then they sent me back home...td br je jumpa him again..pass to him something..esok diorang dah nk gerak perak....and mayb ahad nih nk gi karaoke lg!..yeehaa!...and yeahh..eman's nick name= pak man tote, pak man pon pon and acu!..ahahha comeyl kan! hahhaha..i know i know..i laugh too much! xDDD


"loving someone whO doesn't love you is like watching a star...you know you can never reach..but you just have to keep on trying..why not??? "sTaRs cAn FaLL...right???""

2nd April 2008., =DD

today was an OK day...very fine yet ok day! wtf?...i was so bowsan dis morning, i did not eat anything till now since im so lazy to reheat the food!..pemalas seyhh...went out with eman just now...he called and he wanted to come over to my house...but nant aper pulak my parents ckp...its not nice to bring a guy masuk...uhh tak manis dipandang!..so i went out with him, brought the laptop skali...and gerak to kapitan. ed, fauzi and the geng were also there. ed pulak nk g survey phone, so he went to q.bay.kul 6.20, me and eman gerak pegi convent, my old skewl, ahha...to pick up his nephew. and we did had some conversation in the car...mostly about his carry bother ( abang angkat)..ahah...and lepas tuh..dah tak tahu nk wat aper...went to his house..i mean his mother's house in sg dua. mula2..malu nk masuk, since im the only girl..and then kakak2 dia balik...so i went in...lepak there almost 3 hours. nothin much happened..i did had fun...but i did not felt anything towards him. dat's gud news rite?....for the first time, i thought i was lepaking with my own family..and him as my brother!..cool kan!..i guess its best for me to think this way. imnot hurting my self, and i felt so good. esok nk kluar lg...i guess i did follow aper yaz ckp...hehe..thanx cousin!

Lepaking with the dudes!

ahahha...dis morning i got a msg from faris sayin' dat he's coming to penang and mau gue jd tour guide nyer!...seriously...im not good at it..and since im kindda bored staying doing nothing at home..i was so excited. he said, dlm tengah hari mcm tuh dia dtg...aper punya t.hari...5 lbh br sampai tuh..tanya diorang nk gi mana...so faris was like..queensbay pown manthab jugak!..ouhh ok...i don't think guys will have fun there..but since he wants to go there......???..while waiting for the dudes, gue main piano sebentar..yeahh..dah boleh main lagu elliot yamin!...hihihi...pastuh faris text....diorang dah sampai rupanyer...told them the way, and they came and picked me up!..the "they" refers to achap, kirin, anep and pais!..hahah...pas tuh gerak ahh q.bay!...bowsan...nothin' was there..ye lahh weekdays..pas tuh ptg2...mmg tak ramai......si kirin pulak lapar...ktorang gerak gi kapitan..aper punya kedediaq...tak der tempat...full house la pulak..ish ishh..punya tunggu and tunggu....dpt gak tempat duduk...pas tuh si dia miss kol...mcm biasa la..he wants me to call him back..yes i did!...he's boring..and tanya pasal "her" again!..wtf...okok...lepas tuh...the dudes nk g amik gambar..konon la..kt depan q.bay...mmg lawa..the plan was to take the car and park tepi q.bay...pastuh...perhatian diorang ditarik oleh S&J...the souvenirs shop...faris bought dis patung yg boleyh gerak2 kepala..ahha nanti tgk dlm kreta dia!..comeyl seyh!..ngan sticker arsenal aper ntah..ahahha..pas tuh kluar2 its already dark...ahah tangkap gambar la sgt!...pas tuh anep tetiba mengeluarkan idea...suruh g batu feringgi...ahah...we went there..and of course this stupid tour guide tak tahu jalan...called eman and asked him...he gave the wrong way ..pening kepala...last skali jumpa jugak..nasib ader anep..lg pakar rupanya..mostly..dia yg kasi tahu jln...we went there..and beli dvd sket..paiss shopping banyak!..ahah dah la hujan lebat...ishh ..and then they sent me back home..arrive around 11.15....

to the dudes: THANX yea..nant cek blanja nasi kandaq ngan pasemboq!...p/s bila ader duit ahh..=DDDD...

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he said he likes her!! ahhh forget it!...dats it! he's my fren and will always be my friend. I just need to forget about everything and move on!..guys are so unbelievable! i don't look at cute guys..ahha..okok i do, but guys with interesting personality and attitude attracts me. well, im just wasting my precious time thinking when i know that "someone" does not exist! dis year is killing me! problems everywhere! i dont know what else to do. y must evrything happened sekali gus! bala ke aper nih! the toyol thing, money, that fella...my result! im scared to go back...i am so scared. why? huh!...i am feeling useless rite now!..very very useless rite now. i mean, i don't know who likes me and who don't. im scared of what ppl would think of me dat i tend to hurt my self everytime. i thought i deserve sumthing gud, or sumthin dat will make me happy...but i dont!..i don't know how to describe dis feeling...seriously...no one would understand...no one!...