public peeing?

I’ve never thought that I’ll be looking at guys peeing. They seriously do that? I mean peeing anywhere they like. That’s unbelievable. hahahah

Its about my 2 friends, who tak tahan mau kencing…and they suddenly ran to this bush where it’s a bit dark there and start peeing.

I was like “ hoi, r u guys serious. Biar btol ” I seriously thought they were fooling around. But embarrassingly, yes they did .I was looking at them, I mean seriously. They were like ‘ aya, pusing blakang. We’re peeing. U shouldn’t be staring like that’. Hahah sumpah I thought they were faking it.

but after finishing their peeing session, what they came out was ‘ tu la …lelaki nih sng, bole kencing kt mana2..bkn mcm prompuan’ hah? ..and I said “ that was my first time ever tgk lelaki kencing!”

Hahaha and of course, they think otherwise. ‘ ha, aya. Ermm lain mcm tu. Hahahhaahhah and start laughing like hell. Ahahha bodoh btol.

However, I have so much fun lepaking with them today. I always do actually. 

until then, sayonara!

the moody day

i know i was a bit out of mood this morning. people do realize and starting to ask me whether im okay and what is wrong with me. i dont actually do it on purpose and i have no idea why i was so moody that morning. i guess its because of the phone call i receive yesterday...that is always the main reason why i hate going back to png that often. ouhh i do love png, but i dont know y the hell im being so moody out of a sudden. there's just too many problems to think and i hate the fact that i can get over it and everytime i try so so hard to just ignore the problems, i'll end up being quiet.

i love helping my friends, expecially when it comes to their love life. i learn and know some things through my experiance. as sad as it may sound, my love life sucks. i dont have one to be exact. things are getting even harder for me when i am the only one left for not having that ' someone special' in my life. ouhh god, i have no idea why the hell is this thing bothering me so much.

but, im grateful to have frens. they do help me in some ways and to know that im being appreciated is the best thing that could have happened. =)

about the moving out thingy, i do really look forward to move out next month. i guess its the best decision i can make so far.  there's jst too much reason to mention.  its hard i know.  but im left with no choice. 

adios!

back from png =(

today was really tiring. as usual, the mood is not good. im not happy. im sad. haiihh

anyway, i have no idea what to blog today. bye

special?

ignore the title. i ran out of ideas lately. so i figured out that title that doesn't suit the topic is interesting in some ways. hehe

i dnt know y, the pic is there. ahahha suka hati la.

btw, that is how my universty 'konon'  look like. colourful. i know haha.

i was confused when my mum called just now. we talked about  certain things that i dnt know how to act. what to do or answer.  haishh. yeaa bei did called too. yesterday was his birthday and he got this free calls. suchh a sweetie to call me instead of his gf which he dont really own one.

i actually wanted to post this poem i found it  it interesting. its from my old blog from f.ster  so here it is:

U KNOW NOTHING

You don’t know me.
You think you do.
As you watch me,
doing my every move.
But you don’t know me,
You don’t know me at all.
You think my smiles
Mean something special,
But you are wrong.
My smiles
Are just hiding,
My broken personality.
You think my glares
Mean I hate you,
But you are wrong.
My glares just show that I don’t understand you.
You think I’m wrong
Because I lie,
And I cheat,
And I hurt you.
But look a little deeper,
Just try and find,
The real me.

p/s = yaz, dont u think this poem suits u? hehehe

Mereka

its 3.30a.m. i cant sleep and i dont know y.

im bored. im missing my late night outings. haihhh i should get over it, i know. i know.

it's hard. 

ba and mak are making it even harder for me. to be back before 10?? whutthaa. they even call me to check whether im home or not. this is so not working for me. 

i understand that they are trying their very best to be a good parent. come on, im 19 and i know what's good and bad. 

in penang, im allowed to be back late. see, i hate this part.  they have this unbrilliant thoughts of KL which they think that lepaking after 10, even if im in colloge is very very very very unsafe.

and as the only daughter, to listen to what they say is a strictly YES YES!

NO! NO! NO!. however, they're not here to spy on me. hehehe

A Peek at Chuck Bass

Current song playing on iPod: “Guilt By Association” by Louis XIV
Current Book on the nightstand: Rules of the Game by Neil Strauss
Ideal Vacation Destination: Turks and Caico
Childhood Crush: Catherine Deneuve
Favorite Afterschool Activity: Drinking at The Palace
Favorite School Subject: French (the language of love)
Favorite Website: New York Times
Favorite Food: Foie Gras
Favorite Video Game: Assassin’s Creed
Favorite Magazine: GQ
Favorite Reality Show: The Girls Next Door
Phone of Choice: Motorola Q
Dream Job: Future CEO of Bass Industries. Don’t you just love nepotism?


Lives with: dad, Bart, a NYC real estate tycoon and fellow womanizer
Likes: Scotch, limos, hotel suites, the Knicks, sushi, parties, jetsetting, silk pajamas, New York Philharmonic, bottle service, fedoras
Dislikes: Subway/public transportation, bubble gum, cheap wine, paper plates and plastic utensils, any borough but Manhattan
Best Friend: Nate Archibald
Girlfriend: prefers not to be tied down
Favorite fashion accessory: his signature scarf
Favorite places in New York: Madison Square Garden, The Palace Hotel, Beatrice Inn, the Frick Collection, Cornelia Day Resort, the Carousel in Central Park
Favorite Music: T. Rex, The Stooges, Mark Ronson, Sex Pistols, M.I.A., The Velvet Underground, Tokyo Police Club, Louis XIV, Interpol
Favorite Authors: Marquis de Sade, Christopher Marlowe, Anthony Burgess, Johann Wolfgang von Goethe, Neil Strauss, Oscar Wilde
Favorite Movies: Crimes and Misdemeanors, Battle Royale, Boogie Nights, The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, Requiem for a Dream, Before the Devil Knows You’re Dead, Cries and Whispers
Favorite designers: Paul Smith, Comme de Garcon, THECAST, Marc Jacobs, Ted Baker
Favorite TV Shows: The Wire, Dexter, South Park, Little Britain, MTV Cribs, The Fresh Prince of Bel Air, Mad Men, Nip/Tuck, The Tudors
Heroes: the greatest businessman of all time, Hugh Hefner
Motto: “I am Chuck Bass”

7 days left

these few days are driving me crazy. today reminds me that im left with another 7 days untill im back in Shah Alam. i am not happy and to be back in a week are making my life miserable. my everyday moods sucks. i'll be extremely happy on one day, and i'll be moody on another day. and i have no idea why.

alright enough said. today was an okay day. nothing happened this morning. but yesterday was good. my mum bought this new grill machine. as usual, i was experimenting the machine...and at one point i got so frustrated when the machine suddenly stop working. the result was remarkable, the chicken were marvelous. and we decided to grill some of those chicken plus some meat and etc this saturday when my parents are not around. i might call ed and anis. it'll be fun. sumpah x sabar. hahah

just now, yesterday to be exact. kak rina called me for dinner together. she wants to see abg mer badly that i decided for us to eat somewhere near their house which was totaly a stupid idea. my intention was to meet eman and i did. but sadly, kak rina left frustratingly. i felt bad for her, as i was the one who suggested the idea at the first place.

i guess thats all. nothing much to write. the mood to blog is no longer available. adios!

screw me!

fuck fuck fuck. ahh..only bad words are coming out from my mouth. i feel stupid, unhappy and so many other unpleasant moods. there's too many things to think. too many things to do. there's just too many. huh! however it's not a sigh of relief .

Im not home almost every night. During the day, yes. But not at night. I can’t stand being home at night even for one day but I do sacrifice my weekends to be with my family. yea.. they do matters to me.

Just now, I went out with ed and Kaha. They have these brilliant thoughts that you would never expect from a 19 and a 20 year old. They talk about business and some life experience and it did motivate me. It did. But something else was on my mind. I wasn’t actually concentrating on whatever topic they’re talking. What I did was, I nod my head and agree with whatever they says.

I actually miss him so much. I finally have to admit this. I want to meet him so badly but I just can’t. what is so wrong with me. I don’t even know it myself. Fuck my mind, fuck my heart.

p/s sorry for the FUCK

stars and moon?

i love my hometown. nothing can compare the feeling when im here. its not just about the people, its about the calmness and freedom i have here. everyday and every second means alot to me, expecially when im with my friends and family. they bring out the best in me as if i am someone important to them. it matters when people say i mean alot to them, because they mean alot to me too. 

you know, sometimes i have to admit, that there are times when i feel so alone. i know i have always been supporting people who are single and to move on being single is the best thing that could happened. i lied. i've seen too many relationships fall apart, and im scared to be part of it. people suiciding, running away from home,  doing things against the religion.... im scared that i might do it one day. i am seriously.

to be honest, i have crush on too many people. i wont mention who they are. =DD . i mean i like them, but i dont love them to be exact. but there is this one person who had stole my heart once upon a time, and sadly he's not the one. kindda irony, i know. take it ,that way then hehe.

mak and ba will be going to Bandung on the 12th. as usual, i have to baby sit my baby syer. hehe i just need to be home alone for a while. i miss the home alone feeling.  just imagine. being home alone, with a car and some money. hahah what else can be better. sumpah x sabar.

i miss DB. hahah tiba2 kan. i have not see him for quite some time. but at least i saw his mom last 2 days. hehe. hish dats all 4 today. im tired due to the karokeing with ed, kaha, kak rina and abg mer and also exercising at 1 in the morning. pelik, i know.

adios and sayonara. =D

definitely, maybe

            April. Suddenly, I kindda like the name. I have no idea why but I somehow figure out that name after watching the movie definitely maybe. Fascinating movie to say. I was bored at 1.00 a.m. and I thought of watching some Korean movies my brother brought back, but the beginning of the movie was uninteresting and boring. I decided to switch to astro and I just hate my remote control . I cant watch the fuckin astro on rainy days! What irritated me the most was I can’t also watch gossip girl due to  my stupid brother ( although i  know he’s not) deleted all the episodes he downloaded. BUT Ryan Reynolds saves my day! =D! he’s hot. Haha

Alright enough with that. I did karaoke again today. This time was with Anis and Ed. We took the V.I.P room and sing non stop for 2 hours. exhausting! I know. But yet. Fulfilling and I was over all satisfied with the RM40 we paid Heh! I think that’s enough for today. Adios!

first night =DD

first night at home. mmg sangap nk kluar. but i have plans tomorrow morning, so i have to behave "well" in front my parents. as usual. hehe

what happened yesterday was really 'whoa'. What I meant was, it surprised me to see those pictures of him. it was really embarrassing and so discomforting to just imagine. Haha forget about that.

Tomorrow bei is coming back. Hehe yeahh.i am excited to meet him. When he’s around, I don’t feel that bored. That’s the positive side laa..the negative side, he’ll take my speaker away. Jahat.

My dieting is working. I mean I am gravely doing it this time. I hope I am. Since there’s too many people requesting. Hahaha.. macam famous pulak rasa. I am trying. So far, I’ve lost 2kg in 4 days. However, im starting to miss my FRIENDS already. =)

BOSAN

sleepy. yes i am.  my eyes are killing me and i have no idea why im not asleep yet. yeahh im going out later. hah penat. sumpah penat. with the diet thing and herbal life. exercise lg. yaz!!! im doing it!=D

chiow!. hahaha

familiaku terchenta

the familia. i miss all of em'. 

i miss mak, ba, syazwan and bei. its hard to not be around them especially during this time. 2 weeks. then i'll be home. but the waiting part is not that good. knowing that i'll only be back for a week and final pulak. adess...definitely its bad news. im bored. so bored. basically there's nothing much going around here besides im officially almost to broke. i need more clothes!!...and yeah..more weight to lose. heee ~

NANI

its me with my late nani

i miss her so much. it has been 4 years since i last saw her. i miss her ccoking, her smile and her voice. all about her was amazing.  nani, if only you are here, and how i wish you are still  here. it was her who will always there by my side. she'll be mad if anyone calls me fat or hitam. hehhe

i still remember when mak scolded me that i eat too much that it hurt me so bad . i went out and started crying. you came to me and sat next to me. you scolded mak. i was just too happy to know that you were always there.

i still remember the time when we used to watch p.ramlee's movie together. we laugh together. and those moments when we read quran together. it was the most unforgetful moment in my life.

but now you're not here anymore. you were the only nani i had. the only one and you went away. i love you and i will always do. nani.

suka suka

here i go again. feeling bored as always, caught up in the room with nothing good to do besides wondering what will be serve on the table at 7. hahh.. food.
talking about food, i miss the food in singapore. damnn..the indian food, were amazing..sedap nk mampos!.although its a bit pricey, well its worth of the sing dollar.
im bored and bored. tired of studying you tube and david bynes. ouhh i just love him. the way he touches the piano, damn its like a gift from god. how i wished it was me handling those keys. well, it was'nt me and will nt be me. someday i'll pas my dreams to my children..haha like ba did and sadly, he gain nothing due to my lazyness and stupidness. bodoh. ishh
however, i'll get things done. i'll make sure i'll get it done. heee =DD

Cup Cakes

its time to update!..finally my laptop is fine, the connection is fine and everything is so fine..and i thank MR PAIS for his jasa baik. =D

here, i would like to show some of me and ayireens's baking and designing skills although kak liana do help alot with the waiting part in front of the oven. hehe








and yea..yaz and syamim's skills were included as well. =D

hisshh penat kot!

Damn..i miss my laptop to the extend that i dont think i have anything better to do. sitting here and looking and my poor presario is so bad luck. i thought last year was bad luck but this year? ouhh...not again. but, financially ...its better this year =D hihihi...
i am so exhausted and tired and weak but still thinking of my baskin in the fridge. heheh..
and yeah..bei is coming to kl..perhaps he is in kl rite now..and i miss him. and my family and everyone .
i promised anis to call her today, although the tiredness inside me is still freshh...but promise is still a promise kan.
exam is so near, and i dont think im close to 5% ready yet! how sad it might sound, im not ready to tensed up my mind and a song to sing might cheer me up. how sangap i am to karaoke...but to bad im here..and it seems like im sharing with no one for this passion except for si elle and izzut. however, this sangapness is still under control. and i'll try to maintain.

29th oct 2008...cepatlaaaa!!!

think think think

a day in png was =). the feeling i felt at home is so much different. i like staying in kl but its always better when im in png. the feeling when you see your parents, your brother, your family..i just felt so happy and to leave them was hard. things change. last Saturday, i went out with ed, Man, Fauzi and Abg Mer. its a new crowd new friends, new people. heheh.....although good memories with them in gsc are indescribable but we are still us and no one changed except imanudin. hanging out without him was kindda better. ed hates him and so does Man and Fauzi. i felt terribly disappointed towards him. he just changed too much and i feel like i dont know him anymore. we hang out together and ed drove his coming to be savvy. i enjoyed to the max with them. going back to penang without sneaking out?..hahah....yea yea..i did went out without asking my parents permission...but with ed and savvy. the car was so cool...berbangga jugak la...because everyone was looking at us..(rasanyer la) sbb kereta tuh comeyl sgt. eheheh

im kindda disappointed with people. sometimes...y not think before you do something. you might hurt someone's feeling but you'll just don't realize. don't be selfish. think about others because the 'others' are thinking about you. seriously...take time...and think back what you've done wrong. its good to change and be yourself.

say no to war? wtf?

=DD... i know i know. im happy.
this few days were the day full of disaster...about moving out thingy...and everything. i got tensed up with my parents and things. plus with the great amount of money i have to spend to rent a house, and there's no more income from auntie. i thought about it yesterday...dat made me decide no to move out and i need yaz to stay with me. and yeayy.....yaz tak jadi pindah. im happy..and everyone will. trust me.

dats all je kot...heheh

and yea...
what makes a child or a person loses their innocence?
hahah jgn pk kotor dowhh..
when they start to question jawapan dia..
i dont know y..baru blaja td..so im applying what i learnt. hehehhe

busy women, deko dekona..busy women =DD

its 2a.m...i know its late...but not dat late lg la kan...i was kindda being a super busy women today...trying hard enough to not feel bored. YES!...although yaz berlaku curang...promised me to watch wanted together..i waited for her, but she watched with k3ram instead. =(...org berbalak sudeyhh...nvm...im watcing it with my dearest cousin tomorrow....anyway...i'm in middle of this huge crisis with everyone...d get me wrong yee...its like everyone comes to me..when they have problems...i dont mind actually...dat is the only thing im good at i guess...

i was just gayuting with anis few minutes ago....but while i was gayuting ...abg mer called...talk about eman...and anis was right about eveything..uh

today was tiring actually...but thanks to redbull..im not asleep till now...yesterday..slept at 5...woke up at 12..hehehe....the first thing i did was drink my MILO...and then helped my aunty to paint the gym room...with mereka2. done with that..have to pasang all the ikea's thing to bring to the tution centre.

but it were all paid off when mamu gave all of us rm50 each. heheh and yeah..chicken chop as dinner. thanx aunty and mamu!..hehehe...im tired and my back hurts to da max. need some sleep. so chaw evryone! sayonara. pa ya sin. peace! =D

bored

here i am blogging from the room...dpt wireless kot dalam bilik..ahhahaha
seronok tak terhingga ...
btw..i am happy b'cuz i had just discover this wireless thing...but on the other hand someone is doing his shits again. bodoh bodoh bodoh...
tgk lah malam ni...ouhh wish me luckk
=DD

at mamuin's

2nd day at mamuin's were so cool. today ...i went out the whole day with buana and ouhh that adorable baby qish. helped buana to shop with qishy...and buana belanja kfc..heheheh
and went back...acal was like...mama jom makan ice cream mahal...mami took us all out to eat baskin robin...sorang two scoops kowt...mcm cool jer kan...and then ayep tetiba...mama..kita makan subway lagi best..buana was like...ermm jom la buana belanja...hahhaa...tak mcm bertuah gler ke...hahaha....

i miss home =(

shisha day

ed, eman, jeff, abg mer and me

me and kak rina....

although those pictures were'nt that clear. heheheh but its still precious. =D

here i am in mamuin's house..trying to update..
actually...its about last tuesday (24.6.08)
i actually went out with abg mer, kak rina, eman, ed, jeff and me..
we were planning on shisha'ing together...
so yes we did...hang out together..we had fun but not as fun as we used to hang out last week..
but yeaa..i do miss all of them ..

B>O>D>O>H

ouhh..i so hate dis feeling. all i did was moody all day long and there's no reasons for it. i don't know why in the world dis feeling is bothering me..and anis came up with the answer..."sarah hang dah nak balik shah alam. biasala tu"...
ahhh yea...she's right. i love staying here. i'll miss everyone here. god..y am i so emotional...its not like im not gonna be back forever...
its all about the problems i'll be facing there and i hate it. i just hate it. bodoh me! =(

HAPPY 53th BIRTHDAY BA!

not like he's going to read dis..but who cares..=p


yea...dats mak and ba!..i do look like ba kan =D

malas nak update actually...
but i bought a gift for my lovely ba...and thanx to yazzy who helps me with the idea..
ba likes it..and the best part was, he needs those stuffs i bought..
which was a wallet and a belt
it all cost RM75..
to find a gift for a guy is definitely hard and mostly are expensive..
haishh why dont guys likes what girls like...susahh oo...mau cari..
=D

tired.

huh...(sigh)..i am so freaking tired today. well...ba bwat dis open house...not to say that open..we just invited some of our close frens and relatives...mak bedah was there..kalanor and mamu amer's family was there...and yeah...the winner of the biggest family ever brought to the open house was uncle jabarullah and family. kalanor brought an anak angkat as well..hahah...he's from indonesia. kindda cute..but he's 13. hahaha

i was so pissed off to buna today. she was just to annoying and selfish that i decided to hate her forever. damn!..scram you!

enough for today.

yesterday the plan was to bring syazwan to watch kung fu panda. mak and ba was supposed to go to that uptrend meeting...and i got the car. heheheh (evil laugh). so..i thought of inviting someone to follow me but no one was available and sadly i thought...i have to go alone..ouh yeaa with baby syer. and heheh of course ed called. and stupid me...i forgot about him. so i went and picked him up but it was already 8.45pm. definitely we wont be able to watch the movie..and i was so not into the mood of watching any movie. the mood was so into lepaking with hehehe... i took the lap top went to kapitan..lepak for a while..ouhh yea..it was boring..called abg mer ..called eman..they were in this huge fight...and eman went out with his gf.

so at last..i told ed..im going home. im bored and im mad and im not in the mood to lepak anymore. so we went home. and b4 i shut down the engine of my lovely daihatsu...abg mer called. ehehe he was walking alone to pelita sg dua...kesian la pulak..so we decided to go to him. i mean teman him kejap la...and when we arrived..i got to know that kak rina and jeff were also coming. and 5 minutes later..abg mer's fren..i dont know what's the name...but there were 7 of us including baby syer.

omg...they were so fun to hang out with. i laughed like hell....syazwan was such a lovely brother yesterday...hahaha....i just love them all. but..unfortunately...syazwan was sleepy and tired....and he wanted to go home...agak2 la...its 12.30 dah time tuh. but b4 that...tak sampai hati tgk abg mer walk back home alone..so i thought of giving him a ride...ye la..slalu naik kreta dia...y not help him pulak...so went and sent him back home...which was also eman's home and guess who was there la kan...

so sent off abg mer and we went home..it was about 1.30am when we reached home...eheheh...and guess what...there's no electricity. the whole taman sri nibong was quiet and dark. b;ack off mcm gler babay. that so reminds me of the silent hill...scary dowh...seksa jugak la...the electricity was back at 3.40am. i couldn't asleep untill 5 . and imagine waking up at 10. hang out with shaz and anis today. went back home at 7. then..ader open house pulak. help ba and mak to clean the kitchen and now its 2.30am. imagine la kan...how fucking tired i am rite now!...hah ok...i need the sleep mann!! nite nite!

confusianism. whuttha?

as boring as it might sound now, i must tell that im not. i did not go anywhere..neither do anything. i was at home from morning till now that i have to baby sit my lil brother as well as being his tuition teacher...ouh i love my job. hehehe..but ( climax) =DD
the story of the day begins when eman called at 4.00 to ask me for some favors. what else la kan. so..me as usual did help. how cant i. ehhh..i helped everyone kan.
so...kluar je from the house...yazzy called. as usual there must be something hot that she wants to tell...and yea..it was the hottest story of the day. i wont tell what it was...ini antara gua sama cousin gua. heheh. what is the purpose of me telling anyway kan. stupid.
ok...actually i was about to pass something to eman masa yazzy called..and i gave the thing to him and they invited me to have lunner ( combination of lunch and dinner ) together haha..
yes...i followed them to kapitan again.
and there..i saw nora. we used to work together..but i tend to hate her for a while..but pass is pass. she used to like abg amer..hhehe which i know abg mer don't. she looked different dow..with new eye brows, bright pink shirt which was definitely a major improvement. she used to wear this cartoon T-shirt to work everyday and jeans which were not what ur eyes wants to see. but still, she still make ups like she used to.
ok, suddenly there was this phone call from eman's phone..i dont know who it was..but suddenly he looked at me..i mean seriously looked at me..his eyes were sharply focused on mine and he starts saying those 3 words. i love you. hah!...and he kept on repeating 3 times which i obviously did not answer. and the last question was..if i would to marry u..would you accept me...damn what should i say...hahah ouhh yeaa i kept quiet and all i did was smile back to him.
i dont know what else to say, whether he's serious or fooling around. and yeahh..one more thing..i took his phone...kindda bwat spot check..heheh and ader ke patut..he put my name in the phone as sarah gsc..haha i was like...hoiiiii...u letak nama i sarah gsc..then..he changed something...heheh he changed my name from sarah gsc to sarah my love...pandai kan mamat nih amik hati org...ishhh...and yea again..i looked at him and smile. i just don't know what to do.. how to react ..or even what to say....damn i am confused and scared and arghh

teeheeeee =p

went out with my dearest eman and abg mer today. i brought my laptop cuz eman want's to download some stuffs..so, we end up in borders starbucks, sitting comfortably and how kind was abg mer to buy us a drink each.from sarbucks kowt..but hugs and kisses to miss jelfarina. haha because of her..we saved RM11.10. thanx lah abg mer and kak rina! hihiih..and yeahh..kak rina was there..i mean she works there..where else can she be kan. itu kak rina..jeff punya kakak la..hahah..lepak there about 4 hours kot..
done with that, we went to kapitan. tempat biasa la..but then..i lied to mak yang i went to watch movie which i obviously did not. rasa bersalah ader la jugak...but now i dont know what movie should i tell my mum i watched. ahh..itu boleh selesai kemudian.
we went out at 6.30 and i arrived home at 1.15a.m. heheh...actually still tak puas...what we did was onlining je all the time. ader rasa itu geram sket lah. but...he was so sweet today. im kindda confused about everything. i dont know how should i tell him. haishhhh...i had fun.
okla...sudah mau tdo..its 3.40a.m.already...adios!

healthy food, healthy life

last few days were celebrated with food. i mean tremendously delicious food. but the problem is..there is no confirmation about the freshness and how healthy the foods are. so here i am trying to introduce healthy foods, specially cooked by my lovely ba..which taste damn good. ini penang mali punya woo...=DD

dis is parpu telur

sambal tauhu

udang berempah..the prawns were huge
we so need healthy food in our life. so take note that:

fruits and vegetables
Vegetables and fruits are the most nutrient-dense foods. They contain the greatest amounts of nutrients per calorie of any food. Many nutrients, including the ones that fight against cancer and heart disease are found in fruits and vegetables.

Vegetables have less sugars than fruits.

water
Everyone needs water to stay healthy and survive. Water is a very important part of the body. About 70% of our bodies is composed of water. do you know that Thirst is a signal to your body that you need water. However, in most cases, thirst occurs after your body has already become dehydrated. It is best to keep your body hydrated with water before you become thirsty. you also be aware that....

• The blood supply is about 92% water.
• A person who weighs 150 pounds should contain about 80 quarts of water.

interesting huh! =D

the xtra day

walliouu..haha..i dont know how to spell that..
its 3.25am...im bored.

yesterday..which was few hours ago, was fun. but i would rather call the day as the day of food of heaven. y?...since it was father's day..mak was so into eating something extra-delicious. there were few suggested restaurant, but of course as usual..ba wants nasi kandar. and yeah..we went all the way to town to hameediah. after full 'feeing' the needs of our stomaches..i suddenly came out with this kindda generous idea to buy them baskin robin. i dont know what was i thinking..but ba was so excited and that makes me happy. we then go to q.bay to have some ice cream. i mean that extra delicious ice cream because it has this one of a kind extra ingredient, flavour...and of course u need extra money to buy it. done with dat, its time to say goodbye to bei. sent him off...haihh..im alone again.

i was kindda over slept today, and no doubt that the freshness is still high that i tend to stay awake till now. ok..whats for dinner?..first, i gave dis suggestion to mak to cook. but mak will always come with this special idea and the idea was to go to chef and brew. hahaha brilliant!...we all went there except for bei..he missed that wonderful dinner!..huhuhu...manyak rugi...
the food was good and yea..the money was good, eyhh extra good.
its all about money and yeaa...credit cards!

GaYLordZ

A night out to karaoke with my love ones. we went out at 1.30am. NOT sneak out, but we went out with parents permission of course..hihih..and arrived at the place at 1.40. we took another 30 minutes to choose the songs...and we end up singing only 5 songs which was definitely not enough. everyone were not satisfied, hungry, tired and sleepy...and there we see dis huge red M..damn, there goes my money. its Mc Donalds babeh!

THE OLDEST

THE YOUNGEST (SORT OF) HAHAH

What a mess. makanlah sampai lebam

we love us!

we definitely had a major fun together. bei and bu went back today. im missing them already. but this is life. move on and do what you do best.
and btw

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

ba waw sin alif nun.

Bila ribut bowsan melanda, inilah akibanya...

Kegedikkan yang melampau

Posing yang ermm..tidak maut langsung..

Ketembaman yang luar biasa..

Kechomelan yang tak diduga..hehe



i had fun again.
with them.
ed,fauzi,boey.
and the other two.
karaoke, gurney, mcd and bj.
i'll miss the trip to bukit merah.
but
it's ok, there's still time. (=

fun DAY!

currently listening to ludah america by hujan ..ahahah bapak mantab lagu tuh..
i went out today...hehe..but with my parents..which was so fun. mak ngan ba were like da best parents ever today...they bought me lots of stuff..heeee=DDD...perfume, tights, sluar baru, 3 baju..

there was this incident inside the car where ba ngan mak suddenly had dis conversation about suami. hahahha..which was dedicated to me.

ba was like, sarah, kalau nak cari suami nanti..make sure he can get along with our family. tak kisah la kalau miskin ka apa...tp i want dat guy to love you and ur family as well. im lucky sb rapat ngan mak's family dr kecik..so i get along very well..

mak: tu la...tgk abg azrai ngan mamu kamarul. kalanor and buana made a huge mistake. tgk buana..wat happened to her...kesian mak tgk dia..azrai langsung tak jumpa ngan family diana..and mamu kamarul..mcm biasa la..azrai..tuh...bwat mcm muda lagi..smoking, lepak ngan kwn...he's married..takkan tak leyh pikir kot..

ba: tak kisah la kalau smoking ka tak...attitude tu yg penting..

mak:kalau boleh mak x nak la yg smoking..

ba terdiam seketika..and i wonder y..ahhah...

dat conversation made me think seketika...i was about to say...mak ngan ba carikan la kt aya..ahahah....dun worry..i did not..ahhah..
and yeahh..ba tetiba today ckp nak beli new phone..i was like,..ha beli la..phone ba kasi kt aya..and he kept quiet...how wonderful life is kalau i got the phone...i need a camera badly...seriously..and yeahh...i've paid ed rm100..ehheh im proud of myslef..yeehaaa...double double doo...wutthaa?...=DD

1st day in png

its 1.51am. the bass in my room is huh! indescribable..im happy and what else matters...i just arrived from kl today with erzat, and yeah..my blur uncle came and picked us up. we had to carry like 7 bags to fit in 7 ppl in citra. it was tiring yet fun. heheh...i texted ed, anis and my mum and the minute i went inside the house, eman called...and ajak lepak..of course i refused..but i did'nt to ed..ehehe how can i..=D

ok, done with that..mamu amer ajak gi mkn dinner..and mak asked me to clean up the whole house...i did and yeah..went out with mamu amer..we did have dis conversation about uptrend, uncles, cousins..ouh yea..dis is actually some sort of unofficially gossiping with family..ehheh..menarik gak...went home..gossip ngan parents plak...how wonderful the life is kan..

eman came, 15 minutes ago..cm biasa nak kasi empty disc..and he's acting weird..very weird..btw..kwn2 ku di shah alam..aku merindui korang smua! =DD

finally, im in my room in penang typing and posting a blog. ouwhh how i miss this moment. ok , first of all, budak chomeyl..i got no crdt to reply ur msgs...sorry. second is...gud news ppl! i have my own lappy..and my dad bought a new apple macbook notebook!...its white ppl! urghh i want dat and bei..keep on dreamin'. ba takkan kasi nyee...ehhehe. but it does give me dis one kind of satisfaction ahahah...i've always want a lappy and now i have one...basically...miracles does happened kan!..i told ya...tuhan itu maha adil.

im bored. trust me i am. its 3.34 in the morning and im not asleep yet. wondering and googling and im trying to do all the "ling" dat i can do...and i came out with nothing besides mengelamun. eyhh..its actually a good way to spent dat sort of free time u have kan kan. hehehe....i just cant wait for tomorrow. meeting everyone...go to q.bay mayb. =DD

im happy..yes i am. =DD

dont believe in miracles, depend on them! =D

5th may 08

hari ini sgt gembira. this morning eman call...yeah..i did call him back..asked him about everything and im kindda relief lepas dah tahu the truth...today was so tiring...since yesterday budak comel called and i talk to him about 2 hours..ahahah b4 dat kluar ngan faiz...pegi lepak2 with him..lama jugak x hang out ngan dia...xm hari ni ada sikit kesukaran but oklaa...im bored!!...lg sebulan nk balik png! yeayyy...=DDD

=(

ouhh..i feel so lonely rite now and i dont know why. there's to many things going around that i cant even focus on one thing. exam is coming soon, losing weight is another problem, i need more money!!..goshh!..
sometimes when u start to love someone, u tend to forget everyone around you including your friends. and dats my major problem. its not dat im in love and im neglecting my frens, its just dat people do that. they dont realize untill they're being told.

sometimes, its not about having someone special in ur life...its about remembering the one who always help u when u need them, someone who will always be with you no matter how busy they are, someone who will stick with you and appreciate u the way you are. it hurts when u know you've been kicked out from their life. yeaahh..they will accept u back..but it takes a while...untill they think they need you, they'll come back to you.

i know i love my friends to much. i know i'll do anything for them to like me. but sometimes, why cant they do the same?..i know, sometimes..i talk to much and there are times that i hurt ppl. i know i hurt them..its not dat i do it on purpose. its just because i care about those people to much..understand me and i'll understand you.

i'll try to be someone better. at least im trying. pls..don't lie to me..you can hurt me but pls dont lie. it hurts so bad. i'll accept anything, whatever you think you wanna say..just say it. i'll take it as a challenge and live with it.

p/s..to him. pls change. i know ur a good person. i know u can be somebody but pls..stop hurting people who loves you more than anything. try to learn how to appreciate people. remember..honesty is always the best policy! helping you is all i can do. call me if u need me. =)

blub blub!

have u ever changed someone into someone u never know he could be..and when u left him, he's not the person u knew anymore.. YES! i did...he changed!!...he's being stupid again and i dont know y..im not there to protect him anymore...he's just being so stupid! he promised me and he lied! arghhh!!!!...stupid fren he got there! ppl! THINK BEFORE U ACT!!!

Thank U!

"Tuhan itu maha adil". that is wat i'll always stick to. i know, my life will be over another 3 days. i know dis happy face will never ever be the same again. but im glad that i am now, smilling and enjoying my life while i can. Move on, is the best way to pursuit happiness. to be happy, i'll think of wat i'll remember. The best moment is what i cherish to make me be proud of who i am. The key of happiness is Bad memory. Crying is wat i do best to forget everything. sometimes, its about U. U urself ..have to change watever ur thinking. u dont have to have millions to be happy.Money doesn't always bring happiness, people with ten million dollars are no happier then people with nine million dollars. u just need that very best moment, with a slice of family and a pinch of friend to have a complete recipe of HAPPINNES. =)

xDD great day!

yeayyyyy!! gue gembira bangat hari ni...hahaha..ok..the plan was like dis...me, eman, abg amer and shaz were supposed to hang out together today...sepatutnyer..nk g tgk movie at 5, KL Drift evryone was so busy dgn benda lain and as usual, me as the postman, yg kena arrange evrythin. and finally, we did manage to go out, but it was 3 hours later, we went out at 8. so...hujan lebat bagai nk rak...i was so soaking wet, penat blow rambut lawa2....smua hancur!..ahhaha..and at last kesemuanya end up kt kapaitan. AGAIN!..yea...i know i know!...Eman, as usual acting so weird kononnyer to impressed shaz. i was just sitting, looking at them, jealous?..hmm lil bit.mayb. eman was starring at her eyes!...damn it. dia mmg x pandai belakon seyh!...huh..tetiba, ader one dis car lalu, and secara kebetulan..laki tuh eman's fren and nadia (shaz's couz) nyer ex bf! timbulah suasana yg caca marba!..ahahhah...crita panjang sgt...malas nk tulis..then, dis eman ni ader bwat benda bodoh sket...akibatnyer...shaz bengang + marah +annoyed = muka merah +biru!..wtf?..ahhha..because of that...dia kena balik asap. si chand ni kuch kaha dah mula kol and bising!...sumpah menyampah gler! and eman kena hantar shaz balik. ktorang pown suruh la eman antar shaz balik....ntahla aper jd dlm kreta..masa balik...muka eman huh!..ahha tuhan je tahu...it was kindda pinkish and redishhh and bluishh..hahah..muka marah ngan frust la tuh.pas tuh dia bersumpah tak nak jumpa shaz, contact her. ahha and ktorang bet, kalau dia wat cm tuh..i'll get rm50!..kindda cool kan!..and tetiba eman was like...aya jom karaoke...ahha i was like..OK!...ahhaha..pastuh gerak la gi karaoke!..his voice was superb!..sedap dowhh!..dah la nyanyi lagu broery...ahhaha...kejap jer kat sana..it was like an hour je..then they sent me back home...td br je jumpa him again..pass to him something..esok diorang dah nk gerak perak....and mayb ahad nih nk gi karaoke lg!..yeehaa!...and yeahh..eman's nick name= pak man tote, pak man pon pon and acu!..ahahha comeyl kan! hahhaha..i know i know..i laugh too much! xDDD


"loving someone whO doesn't love you is like watching a star...you know you can never reach..but you just have to keep on trying..why not??? "sTaRs cAn FaLL...right???""

2nd April 2008., =DD

today was an OK day...very fine yet ok day! wtf?...i was so bowsan dis morning, i did not eat anything till now since im so lazy to reheat the food!..pemalas seyhh...went out with eman just now...he called and he wanted to come over to my house...but nant aper pulak my parents ckp...its not nice to bring a guy masuk...uhh tak manis dipandang!..so i went out with him, brought the laptop skali...and gerak to kapitan. ed, fauzi and the geng were also there. ed pulak nk g survey phone, so he went to q.bay.kul 6.20, me and eman gerak pegi convent, my old skewl, ahha...to pick up his nephew. and we did had some conversation in the car...mostly about his carry bother ( abang angkat)..ahah...and lepas tuh..dah tak tahu nk wat aper...went to his house..i mean his mother's house in sg dua. mula2..malu nk masuk, since im the only girl..and then kakak2 dia balik...so i went in...lepak there almost 3 hours. nothin much happened..i did had fun...but i did not felt anything towards him. dat's gud news rite?....for the first time, i thought i was lepaking with my own family..and him as my brother!..cool kan!..i guess its best for me to think this way. imnot hurting my self, and i felt so good. esok nk kluar lg...i guess i did follow aper yaz ckp...hehe..thanx cousin!

Lepaking with the dudes!

ahahha...dis morning i got a msg from faris sayin' dat he's coming to penang and mau gue jd tour guide nyer!...seriously...im not good at it..and since im kindda bored staying doing nothing at home..i was so excited. he said, dlm tengah hari mcm tuh dia dtg...aper punya t.hari...5 lbh br sampai tuh..tanya diorang nk gi mana...so faris was like..queensbay pown manthab jugak!..ouhh ok...i don't think guys will have fun there..but since he wants to go there......???..while waiting for the dudes, gue main piano sebentar..yeahh..dah boleh main lagu elliot yamin!...hihihi...pastuh faris text....diorang dah sampai rupanyer...told them the way, and they came and picked me up!..the "they" refers to achap, kirin, anep and pais!..hahah...pas tuh gerak ahh q.bay!...bowsan...nothin' was there..ye lahh weekdays..pas tuh ptg2...mmg tak ramai......si kirin pulak lapar...ktorang gerak gi kapitan..aper punya kedediaq...tak der tempat...full house la pulak..ish ishh..punya tunggu and tunggu....dpt gak tempat duduk...pas tuh si dia miss kol...mcm biasa la..he wants me to call him back..yes i did!...he's boring..and tanya pasal "her" again!..wtf...okok...lepas tuh...the dudes nk g amik gambar..konon la..kt depan q.bay...mmg lawa..the plan was to take the car and park tepi q.bay...pastuh...perhatian diorang ditarik oleh S&J...the souvenirs shop...faris bought dis patung yg boleyh gerak2 kepala..ahha nanti tgk dlm kreta dia!..comeyl seyh!..ngan sticker arsenal aper ntah..ahahha..pas tuh kluar2 its already dark...ahah tangkap gambar la sgt!...pas tuh anep tetiba mengeluarkan idea...suruh g batu feringgi...ahah...we went there..and of course this stupid tour guide tak tahu jalan...called eman and asked him...he gave the wrong way ..pening kepala...last skali jumpa jugak..nasib ader anep..lg pakar rupanya..mostly..dia yg kasi tahu jln...we went there..and beli dvd sket..paiss shopping banyak!..ahah dah la hujan lebat...ishh ..and then they sent me back home..arrive around 11.15....

to the dudes: THANX yea..nant cek blanja nasi kandaq ngan pasemboq!...p/s bila ader duit ahh..=DDDD...

='(

he said he likes her!! ahhh forget it!...dats it! he's my fren and will always be my friend. I just need to forget about everything and move on!..guys are so unbelievable! i don't look at cute guys..ahha..okok i do, but guys with interesting personality and attitude attracts me. well, im just wasting my precious time thinking when i know that "someone" does not exist! dis year is killing me! problems everywhere! i dont know what else to do. y must evrything happened sekali gus! bala ke aper nih! the toyol thing, money, that fella...my result! im scared to go back...i am so scared. why? huh!...i am feeling useless rite now!..very very useless rite now. i mean, i don't know who likes me and who don't. im scared of what ppl would think of me dat i tend to hurt my self everytime. i thought i deserve sumthing gud, or sumthin dat will make me happy...but i dont!..i don't know how to describe dis feeling...seriously...no one would understand...no one!...

Facial done!

ouhh...bow sann!!.....yesterday, i went to do facial!..heheh 3rd time babeh!.ye arhh kali nih 160 pulak! ..muka ku sgt smooth..but because masa dulu2 tangan tak reti duduk diam2..mukaku berkekas..!! shit shit!...lg 3 hari ok la tuh!..ouhh my house is so like pusat hiburan rite now!..ahha no one is at home..and im havin' my own partay! yeehaaa!!...uuhh yeaa uhh yeaa uhh yeaa!!..nk kluar...tp muka ku hodoh nih!...bye bye! =DDDDDD

Music and instrument!

i am so in da mood of music and instrument today!..i was just hentaming my piano just now. it felt gud to play the piano with the pedal. piano without pedal is 0!...ok lets move on. someday sometime somewhere i would love to learn to play the guitar and the bass. although my dad owns both of the instrument and know how to play it...he wont teach me...cuz i failed my g6 exam!..hehe it was 2 years ago!...come on!..i was'nt interested yet!..but hell yeah!..i am now!..

This is Ed aka danial aka diddy aka my cousin!.eheh...he's gud in guitar. his sifu was Hariz..which also happens to be my cousin as well. ouhh..im livin in a wonderful family!!. dats y i heart them!

last but not least!..my wonderful digital piano!..although its digital, it means a world to me!..one day, i'll buy the acoustic piano! white! yeahh baby white acoustic yamaha piano!

BuLLshits happened in life All THE TIME!

have u ever like ur best fren b4? have u ever like them more then u like them as ur best fren but u just cant fall in love with them! huh! i did!....i met him a year ago and since then .. i just kept thinking about him. he made me see the real world, he's the one who showed me how to be someone dat I've never thought i'll become. i did changed because of him. i thought i hate him, but actually i was'nt hatting him...i was just being stupid to like my own fren! he's my fren!!...but he told me, he like me, he said i've made him smile, he said he likes being around me, he likes hanging out with me, he quit his job because of me, he cried when i leave him, he stop smoking because of me, and start smoking because im not around!, he's the first guy who wished me on valentines day.. am i too ugly, too fat and too everything for him??...yeah yeah everything happens for a reason! I MISS HIM!

Ive seen a lot of things in my life
Alot of ups and downs
Made alot of mistakes

Lord, you mean the world to me
Before I was born you chose me
You always hear me when Im calling
Even catch me when Im falling
Youre the closest one to me
I surrender all to thee
I want the whole wide world to see
That weve always been and well always be
Best friends

Karaoke of the day!

ahhaha...today was so so fun. i just got back from mamu amir's house...now is 2.44am...how late is dat!...ok...eman and abg mer sepatutnyer call me...diorang yg nk ajak gi karaoke...but unfortunately, i cant reach both of the m..phone pown x jwb...sms x reply...haihh..i couldnt stay any longer ay home...soo....i decided to go out....hehhe with my baby daihatsu..there i went to pick up ed....lepas tuh gi ambik nini and nana. ...nini pulak mintak tolong gi sega..to take sumthing from her bf...pegi la pulak area gurney..tak jauh ahh pulak..aiyyaa...lepas tuh trus gerak subaidah....that karaoke thing sebelah subaidah je....boleyh tak tempat tuh mcm tempat mamat rempit lepak...damn scary..tp niat smua org nk karaoke...ahhhaha...so teruskan jugak..masuk lah jugak kami kat dalam...ed pilih 6 songs....nini and nana 6 songs..and me 4 songs!...best nak mampos dpt nyanyi...I LIKE!!!...here are few pictures yg sempat di ambil!

me and luvly nea ..hehe sambil melihat ed uptrand menyanyi!
adegan peminat memberi bunga palsu kpd artist pujaannya! =DDDD

ed uptrand!..haihh lagu broery tuh tgh tuju kat saper eyhh??.....i know i know! =p

we had so much fun today! thanx cousins!
gud news...mak dah tertido!..ahha no one realize i balik lmbat!..mission accomplished!!

Blur + Bowsan = GILA

Goshh..im so fuckin bored!kreta dua2 x der!..arhh cm ner nk kluar...i need chocolate!...yeahh!..ahha..anis called just now...angkasawan yg handsome tuh nk dtg usm..ahhaha...he's in png!...yesterday...balik umah lambat..ehheh ba dah tunggu depan pintu...today..nk kluar again...nt sure!..seriously, after wat happened...i need to forget everything and move on!..stupid college just wants the money! wasted my time, my money!....fuck la...
arhhhh...hopefully im going out today!! i need my daihatsu!!..i need my baby!..i cant stay at home anymore!!!

one girl and two guys night OUT!

ok..now im comfused!!....i went out with eman and abg amer just now!..just the three of us!..mula2 plan nk tgk wayang! but nothing to watch....eman came and picked me up,...the first thing he said was, aya u look beautiful today!!..ahahha Blush* blush*!..wat can i say besides thank u!..ahhaha.
masuk kereta merah tu.....jantung dah nk terpancut! bass sgt power!..eman bawak kreta mcm gler!..and then ktorang gi SUBAIDAH!..windu sama kedai itu!..makan makan!...
bad news...eman dah start smoking balik!...arhh...tp macho dowh! ahah crazy me!!..he's not working and he starts smoking Again!!...dats not good!...i made him smile today, dats wat he said!..he likes hanging out with me, dats wat he said! haihh..i do like him! i do!! but sometimes...he's just not that type of guy!..


"Lots of people
wants to ride with you in the limo, but what you want
is someone who will
take the bus with you when the limo breaks down. "

The Trip To LANGKAWI

LANGKAWI ISLAND

Langkawi was BEAUTIFUL!..i felt like i was in capetown!.the view!..amazing! vey quiet country!...kalau nk honeymoon, i'll recommend berjaya hotel in Langkawi!..fuhh..hebat! the beach sgt bersih..bitch pown ramai yg lawa2...and the guys!..uhhh .ahhaah..terlampau cute!..we went there on thursday, and came back to png on monday. total was 5 days!..there were 8 of us... mamuin,mami faiezah,mak,ba,bhai,ayep,syazwan,me !

mamuin,mami faiezah,,ba,syazwan,ayep,bei ...planning nak naik cable car...but budak skolah mana ntah...ramai nak mampoz!..so mampoz kat diaorang ahh..ktorang gi shopping instead!!!!

island hopping! bot sgt laju..ahha BEST!

Welcome to Tasik Dayang Bunting. huh! penat mendaki bukit. sakit sendi sendi otot. but it was all worth it!...sweating like pig..its good to prevent ur face from getting oily (dennis o'neil)


dis boat cost us rm15...mmg penat...kena kayuh!...it was challenging and exciting! sweat sweat sweat!!! best! baju basah, badan busuk! gunalah REXONA!



Apa ini? abang membunuh adik dgn senyuman! wat can i say! happy family on BOARD!

Setelah penat naik cable car. penat mendaki tangga! inilah hasilnya!!..bak kata pepatah, bersenang senang dahulu, bersusah susah kemudian! View yg sgt cantik menarik tertarik!

Tgh penat memanjat...sempat lg pose!...perempuan! biasala!...

another moment captured!!...behind the loaf! mahathir restaurant. and juga selepas melawat kapal datu azhar mansur!


ouhh..how cute is dat! <3 them!
xoxo Gossip Langkawi!

The E's sucks to the bugss

i am so hating HIM and MYSELF!..arghhhhh..today was so bored, i ajak shaz kluar...and she was like...."hmm..aku ader date japg...lepas date, kt kluar k" arghhhh..tunggu lg..kul 7 she called me....ckp 7.30..dia dtg umah....pas tuh...tiba lah dia di depan umah...she looked horrible..mcm isteri kena tinggal suami..ahaaha ye laa...penat date!.. pas tuh, we went out to kapitan, ambik ed...then gerak!!!..selepas beberapa lama kt kapitan tuh...ed suddenly nk g tgk wayang...so gerak arhhh q.bay...lepas gerak qbay..boleh tak...eman pown ader and yeah...with his gf...arghhhh...asal nk kena jumpa gak...damn!!....jealous?..hmm x kot!!...

DUM DUM, BUM BUM

its been 5 days since my birthday....ok actually the very important people did wished me...ehehe..ok yaz wished me (6.29pm)..and then k3ram (6.32pm)...achap ..no idea wat time..he wished through yaz..ehehe...then bei pulak wish..tuh pown lepas dah antar msg(10.24)...then shaz did call..ed plak wish on the 14th..ahhaha..ader gak yg wish through f.ster/myspace and facebook.
THANX U GUYS!...last friday, i balik kl...one day jer balik..just because to attend that hearing thing...huh...masa nk pegi..tuhan je tahu how i felt..was so so scared, did solat hajat and everything...felt relieve sket arhh...then sampai je umah subang, malam tuh arry text...rupa-rupanyer dia pown kena...aduh there were 3 of us....yg sama kelas laa..but there a few of others yg kena gak...but that morning ader dlm 15 org...but not everyone yg kena caught copying, ader yg masalah practical, fees problem,,,mcm2 problem yg ader...but suddenly ader dis one cute guy tgh berdiri tepi ktoarang..hahaaha nama dia lawence kot...from Sarawak...he's cute...and then cm lembut gler cAkAP..ahha okok..cut the crap!..anu was the fist one to get...then lepas tuh org lain, arry, then me....when i masuk...i wass sitting in the middle....lecturers and dean was around me...they asked me few question gak arhh...but of course i manage to cover up everything...takut la jugak...tp wat ever happens, happens laaa....i've did what i have to..hmm dats all la i guess...bei nk balik dis rabu...yeayy...bley sneak out!!...lama x kluar nih..ye arhh duit dah ko tu..hahahah cm ner nk lepak2 nih..ahahahaha....okok....DAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Bad Birthday!

yeahh...im crying...so wat ..who cares about me anyway!...tomorrow im going back to shah alam..i've never felt like dis b4!!..gler truk rasa..i feel like no one loves me anymore..
the very important ppl in my life tak wish pown except ANIS....there are ppl who wished me..
the first one was aizat (11.56pm), anis ( 11.59pm), elle (11.59pm), nini cousin (12.01pm), baby nini (12.03 pm),syamim (12.21pm) asyireen (12.21pm), nishi (3.39am), mamipah (8.50am), mak (10.42am), yoongae(12.36pm),..dis ppl msg kt phone!..and the only person who called me was NINIE! (12.27pm)...others wished through myspace! mcm faris, kirin, ayep..ehhe....thanx plpl...!!!!.....others like my bro, ed. EMAN, yaz tak wish pown!..the very important ppl in my life!!...diorang terlupa kot!!..wats the big deal anyway!..

Wake up TOYOL!!!

today was so so so so sad!!!....my wake up call was from anu..she called me to inform that she had just received dis post laju thingy...from college. i was so scared, i mean damn scared. thank god i was not planning to go out anywhere...the first thing i did was to call yaz. she did not received anything either..of course i asked her to standby , in case the postman suddenly send it to her house...30 minutes later, ding dong!....DAMN! mampos aku! dat was the only thing that i was thinking in my mind...thank god my dad was in the kitchen...cuak gak la...msu antar post laju dowh! arghh dah ler tak bangun subuh! shit laa....then msg yaz and anu...told them everything!....dalam surat tuh, dia suruh datang college dis 15 march, 10am!....what the fuck?...br jer sampai png..giler babi arhh college...masa tanya tak nk gtau bila..wasted my rm30 and about 6 hours of sitting in the bus!!! shit shit shit!!! must go back to shah alam!! what to do!...dat stupid fella caught me!...huh...everything happens 4 a reason! i still believe in that!!...damn..seriously..dah tak tahu nk pikir aper...wat ever happens, i'll accept it!..but still..i hope gud things happen! dah la tomorrow is my birthday!...gler empty, lonely, fucking sad!, hati tak tenteram!...im wasting my holidays man!!...shitttttt!!!!!!!...nk kluar!...tp duit takder!...dis year seriously sucks!!!....td . went out with syazwan..rambut cm pompuan....so kena bawa dia potong rambut kt hair impression..blakang umah jew..then went to jm..bought some groceries...balik umah..makan...bukak comp..main csi!...huhuhuh..i did manage to solved 3 cases!..=D.....tomorrow is my birthday!..im turning 19!!..but y am i so sad about that?...i guess this will be the saddest birthday ever..actually ..tgh tunggu dat somebody wish me...if he dont, i understand!..there's nothing important about him pon!...dis loser yg slalu mintak cd jer!....i did like him dulu!...but not anymore!.....arghhh......bad luck is wat im getting from god for not praying i guess!...i told u everything heppens 4 a reason!...skrg...alhamdulillah lerr...dah berjinak jinak balik sembahyang!..i mean..dah tak tinggal!! =DDDD....i guess dats all for today!!....i need gud luck!!!!..plzzz...send me GUD LUCK!!

A day with mak TIRI

im absofuckinglutely happy today. ok, i woke up at 6.3o...sangat awal kan..ye la nk sembahyang subuh....ahha ok..then i woke up again at 10.30..ok yg nihh btul2 nyer bangun....then i went straight to the kitchen...goreng telur..makan!..dat was my breakfast...lepas tuh did some house work..ye la..pity my parents..kesian diorang letih..my dad sibuk memasak....my mum..ngan kerja..ok...watsoever....kul 11 get ready...and kul 12 gerak pergi kt mak tiriku!...queensbay lerr...ahhaha...went and picked anis up at bukit jambul...pastuh pergi queensbay....ok mula2 agak boring la tak tahu nk wat aper..mana tak bowsan...balik png jer gerak q.bay....sampai bhaiya kt gsc pown dah kenal..dah cukup bertawaf kt q.bay, suddenly anis nk gi beli present 4 her mother...ktorang gi survey...and at last end up kt level 3, south zone, ternampak GOLDEN SCREEN CINEMA....aduh!!..melayang lagi duitku...we watch step 2 AGAIN!!!!..huh..dat movie was a BOMB!...best gler..i felt like dancing dlm panggung!..nasib ader camera!.....before masuk panggung i bought 1901...(new york chicken) = RM 4.90 ice lemmon tea (s) = RM 2.10 step up 2 (student) = RM 6.00 TOTAL =RM 13.00
damn! banyak tu...lepas tuh..pusing2...ternampak dis one bag..MACAM cantikk..warna dark brown....and tertera di depan beg tuh RM 69.90!...shit...abis lagi duit aku!....ok..i bought dat bag..sbb ader 20% off...ahhahah...lepas discount, dapat ler off RM 13.98.....jd ler RM55.92...
lepas..tuh..jalan2 lagi..nampak pulak dis gelang kt BONITA...buy 2 for RM 10....ahhaha aper lagi..angkut ahh...ok dats it...purse dah kosong...and then anis nk gi makan pulak..we went down..nk makan mcd dah bowsan, so we went dave's deli instead!....we manage to eat crispy chicken which supposed to be the cheapest and warm water...it costs altogether
RM 13.15...bolela...sedap dan mengenyangkan!.....then anis nk gi popular...lalu plak farmasi...i thought of buying vitamin E....belila lagi...it cost me RM 25.....pas tuh mcm nak makan benda manis...gi watson...beli kinder bueno RM 3.20....cashier guy tuh kindda cute..ahahhaso senyum la sket kat dia..bwat ayu2....ahhahah..okok...lepas..suddenly shaz called..nk ajak gi prangin plak..aduh...duit dah ko...so follow je la.....went there....dis particular shoe caught my eyes...hmm beli lagi..RM 29.90...wonder where i got all the money from?...ahhaha atm machine lerr.....ok...dat was the end of everything...seriously..i left with RM11...and a few cents in my purse!...im officially bankrupt!!!!!..shaz sent me home....pastuh sepantas kilat gi sembahyang...ahahha...haihhh..now...how much did i spent alltogether today!..i mean just today..
damnn....i spent RM 150.15..ToDAY.....huh!!! apa ini!....